3 boys

Last week was interesting. Out of nowhere, three guys came into my life. Lets call the first one, CB. I met him at a happy hour. None of my friends knew him. He was just talking to the people i was meeting and before i know it, he was buying me a drink, talking to me and asking for my number. I know from the get go that he and his friends were checking me out but i never thought he would actually asked for my number. Anyhow, so, i met him for like 5 minutes the next day at the jazz fest.Well, i thought i was gonna hang out with him, but then, my friends decided that they were gonna be there too. And so of course i chose my friends over an unknown guy. The other day he left a voicemail asking me out (and hello, NEVER EVER asked a girl on a date on the voicemail because it left the responsibility to her.i didnt call him back coz i wasn't sure i wanna go. I mean, I would probably go just for the heck of it, but what was i suppose to say, "yes, lets go on a date on thursday?"). And so, i was surprised when he called again the next day, on july 4th.But it was too last minute and i had plans. I am not sure if he's still going to call me, so its still open-ended.

The second guy is the natural (happened on friday).Well, i mean i knew him already. I always think he had this almost predatory vibe about him which makes him seemed really mysterious and fucking sexy (there i said it).So that night, i dont know what happened,but we had sparks between us and He pretty much kissed me and then, everything changes. I am too lazy to start from the beginning. So, here's an excerpt of what i wrote on tuesday:
"So, i feel the need to get things off my chest and think straight. I can't bloody stop thinking about him and how the kiss felt like. I think i'm in heat. look at me, i sound like a female dog needing to get some. I would be lying if i say i didn't feel anything. That kiss was just fucking electrifying. The kind that takes your breath away. I felt like he awakened something in me. Something that i have been trying to ignore and just needing it to be ignored because otherwise, i would go mad without release. I mean, i do take care of business sometimes, but feeling a man kissed you like that is just ..i just miss having the touch of a real man, u know? I never thought that he would want to kiss me, or that he's attracted to me at all. I never thought in a million years that he would be attracted to me. I mean, he and I looked like we live in two different worlds. One that would never collide. Its just that the way he looks at you, makes you feel naked and like its as if, he's gonna pounce on you and devour you if you do not keep your guards up. He made me feel good, feel like a woman, feel sexy. But that son of a bitch has that mystery around him that i find irresistible. "

The third is google guy. I'm having a date with him today. we'll see how it goes.