Crave

My body misses your touch like the desert misses the rain. I miss the taste of your mouth, the feel of your lips molding into mine, as if we were two missing pieces of a puzzle. How is it that i always get weak in the knees when I relive the moments we shared together? I miss the feeling of joy when holding hands with you. When i find myself staring into your eyes. You have a pair of eyes that could reach out deep inside my soul. Almost unrelenting in a search to bring something out of me. I always feel naked when you look at me. Those golden pair of eyes, so intense, deep and mesmerizing. A pair of chameleon eyes, olive green with tints of gold. I find myself terrified to look into your eyes the last few times we were together because i feel like i would get trapped in them, and fall more in love with you. Its torture to always think about you. To always dream about you. Even when i know consciously that i cant have you. That these imaginations and dreams will stay the way they are. But i cant help but still feel for you. Still ache for you and still care for you. I hate myself so many times for feeling like this. But, all attempts of rationalizing drives me crazier. So, what can i do? i can only love you achingly, and let you go with an open heart. Even when it hurts like a biatch. I would not trade back a single moment spent with you. I would not trade back a single kiss with you.l I would sell my soul to have just one night of love with you. My chemistry to you is just like electric current. I never imagined its possible to feel like that. I have felt you even before i saw you. I remembered that bday party when i walked in the house, i could feel a tingling and buzzing all over my body , uncomprehensible and when i saw a split second of glimpse of your stature, i understood perfectly clear why i felt that. i felt you before i saw you. I found myself holding my breath, butterflies in my stomach, and energy charging all over my body. I cant even stand properly. It was fucking beautiful.