Who am I?

Have you ever felt like you're lying to the world about who you are? Who you truly are? Not some kind of mask or facade you put on every single day for the world to see. The fake identity that you've created for yourself, or think that you are. The fake identity that you have been preconditioned to by your parents, family and society? Have you ever felt that this is not you. Have you ever felt like you want to scream at the world, plead to the world to let you be who you are. To just let you be who you are. You are scared to do this. Because you think it will be too much. People won't like this. You'll lose everything by speaking your truth. Lose your family, lose your friends because they will not like you anymore. You have to pay the price for wanting the truth and to live as one. Are you willing to do it?

Who am i? I was playing communication games with a bunch of people today and i felt an expansion in me.
The blondie said: "I could fall in love with you because you are not a good girl. There is a vicious side of you that you hide from the world and i think it will be fun to try to tame that."
"you are prissy. You act up on this image of a good girl. when you are not."
"I could fall in love with you because you are a caring woman."

Another one said:" you put up a fragile exterior so people cant say harsh words to hurt you."

what i realized is i'm not who i think i should be. My identity is dynamic. Changes with every moment. Will i ever pin it down to just one static self? I'm not sure. Where's the fun in that?

So, I am a bitch. I am messy. I am an emotional mess. I am mean. I am sweet. I am love. I am intelligent. I am vengeful. I am sensitive. I am anger. I am sadness.I am jealousy. I am a little girl. I am vulnerable. I am power. I am passion. I am sexual. I am a slave to pleasure. I am desire. I am happiness. I am not proper. I am not good but also good. I am beautiful. I am hot. I am turned on. I am courage. I am pretty. I am a seductress. I am a delicate flower. I am a geisha. I am feminine. I am crazy. I am temptation. I am connection. I am intimacy. I am intoxicating. I am dangerous. I am trouble. I am shy. I am agressive. I am subtle. I am scared.I am confusion. I am complicated. I am fantasy. I am the forbidden fruit. I am everything that you ever dreamed of.

I have made a decision to be who i am. I have made a decision to stay to my truth. To speak my truth and to help liberate others just by being who i am.

Damn, another hit, another great opening. :)