break

This is the first night since last week that i've had all to myself. I have been going on a dating spree for the past 6 nights and as glamorous and "sex and the city" as it sounds, its really damn tiring. I'm realizing that i don't want to be doing this continuously. Perhaps i'm just tired right now, but i think i'd rather go out with someone i really really like than to go out with multiple guys that i sorta like. Get what i mean? I mean, i dont need a guy to validate me. I want to go on a date only when it feels right. When i'm excited, not when i "think" i should and see what happens.

Anyhow, Its time to ask myself if i want to continue seeing all three guys. I'm sure of google guy. I think we just do not have it. Bartender, honestly, i'm not really into it. I think he kinda move things a little too weird physically. Well, actually one time, while we were kissing, and then, we're done kissing, i think he sorta rubbed himself with my hand. I knoww...gross..!! with TN, i like him the most, but i have this unsafe feeling around him. Its almost like i think he's going to hurt me in the end. He told me that he doesn't want a serious relationship because of his life situation (it is kinda fucked up). So, perhaps, i'm going to stop seeing all three altogether. I've decided to not go on dates for the next few days. I miss my "me" time. I just want to be by myself.