Annoyance

I am annoyed with boys. The "bartender" is giving me a lot of bullshit which makes me irritated and over him. On sunday night, he said that we were going to see a movie last night, and guess what? never heard from him. I mean, i honestly dont care. But, i just hate the fact that he's just saying it. U know, its like...why say it the first time? BUll shit!I have no tolerance for this kinda crap. And then, i was like, "Oh whatever", and deleted his number last night.Anyways, I got a text msg from him today pretty much telling me he's working at the restaurant and i should come. Are you fucking kidding me? does he really think i worship him? Anyways, yeah, this guy is soo outt!!

Google guy is still pretty sweet. On monday, he complimented me on my new profile picture on facebook. This morning, he sent me a link to rihanna's umbrella video. Did i mention that i'm totally in love with rihanna?? So, i thought it was so sweet of him to remember what i like. He's so thoughtful. But he still hasn't asked me out.I dont know whats going on with him either. *sigh*, i wish me and him have just a little something there u know? he'll make an awesome boyfriend.

TN is just annoyingly unpredictable. I really dont know whats gonna happen next when i'm with him or even without him. He would text me the sweetest message or the "hardly-subtle" sexual message and i never know when i'm gonna get it.It could be in the afternoon, or in the evening, a day after we saw each other or a few days. But, its all in a fun spirit you know? He just keeps me on my toes and i love it. the excitement, the fun spirit, and the annoyance.What i hate the most is that i feel like i dont have any control when i'm with him. Well, perhaps, i love and hate it. I am a control freak on other aspects of my life. And so, i want to not be in control when i'm with a guy i'm dating. (although i will never ever admit it).

So, i haven't gone out on dates for the past two nights and it is Sweet!! i got enough sleep, i work out, no drama whatsoever.I think i'm gonna try to see TN just on the weekends. Its way too tiring to do it on the weeknights coz everytime i'm with him, its hard to peel myself off of him. I just want to be with him. And i always ended up at work so late (we're talking 11 am here, and thankfully its a pretty easy job), and felt really exhausted. Which is weird because its not like i stayed up so late, but i think its more because we slept late and i woke up really early in the morning.

Anyways, i dont have any analysis to do here. I honestly dont know whats gonna happen next.So, stay tuned!