I am feeling happy. I am in love with a guy who makes me feel like a woman, treats me like a woman, and appreciates my femininity. And yet, i am so scared to surrender. Everytime sunday night rolls around, i feel scared. Fear of losing him. I am practicing loving while letting go and its the hardest thing to do. I"m not even sure if i'm doing it right. But, i'm trying to do the "desire without attachment." I am so happy. And i know i cant cling to this. I want to immerse myself in the sweetness, the warmth and the beauty of it. I want to appreciate the moment. *sigh*. I feel lucky to have him in my life. I want to understand him, heart and soul.