Fear

I am terrified of getting hurt again. Terrified of feeling the darkness in my soul for months when everything just doesn't make any sense. It was like moving through water in slow motion. Numb, soundless, blurry. I dont know how to break free of this fear. How do i let this go? I want to be able to embrace love again. I want to be able to take risks again. I have accepted what happened, but somehow i still feel the ghost of emotion so dark and sad that i'm just afraid its going to happen again. I dont think i can take two blows in one year. But the result would be , am i letting opportunities passed by? what if my next great love is right in front of me and i have no balls to reach out to him?

Maybe the key is self-introspection? I'm not sure what the answer is, or even if anyone can help me. It has to come from within myself. its getting late, i should go to sleep.